By the way, there's a book I recommend. It might help explain some of the things you went through as a child. 'Autism in Heels'. It was a lifechanging read for me. I'm totally guessing here, as I don't presume to know your story. I do hope to read about it one day! I've only started writing about mine in the past few years. It can be a really freeing process to go through! Apologies for writing this all publicly. I wish there was a way on Medium for us to contact each other privately <3